Deeper submission

MDD:I am thinking of making a small room below the stairs. What do you think?

Me: I like the idea very much, what would you use the room for?

MDD: Why do you like the idea very much?

Me: Because you could adapt it as sort of dungeon, just an idea. You could store stuff from the garage, I can even move in there and live like a puppy lol, just kidding.

This was an interesting conversation I had with MDD very recently. MDD instructed me to transcribe the above conversation because it shows me associating a small room with my desire to live under Her roof as Her pet. It might sound crazy but it is very real and organic. MDD is creating a new reality and humbly speaking I am helping Her by embracing it organically.

It is amazing how this hausboy experience is letting me recognize aspects of my personality that were unknown or unexplored. Last Thursday for example I acted as a puppy again at MDD’s command... She was watching TV and I was putting groceries away. She said She wanted something sweet, She approached to the kitchen looking for honey, I sat on a stool, keeping an eye on Her in case She needed my service.

MDD found some honey, took a spoon and started to taste it. Suddenly some drops of honey fell on Her feet. MDD call me “come here and clean it”. I took a napkin to wipe it off and She said no “get it, eat it”.

Like I was saying above, I figured that when MDD so naturally treats me like a puppy, it triggers something inside that makes me react just like a puppy. Being on all fours on the floor while bowing to lick the honey off Her feet was just so blissful. I was completely immersed in a puppy mode. It was a very nice reward to lick the honey off until Her feet were completely clean. It was like what a puppy must feel when its Owner gives it a treat.

A pet does not hesitate to obey Her Master and do as told. I enjoyed that moment so much. I was not thinking like human for a moment, I was just being completely aware of every second. Let’s say it was a moment of “nirvana”, if you know what I mean!

I believe we all have the power to create our reality but we need to be hopeful to meet the right people...MDD is that kind of person, She mentioned the other day how important is to reconcile and connect from the present with our past and future.

Feeling like a puppy is connected to this thoughts perhaps fantasies when I was a kid and crawled and played that I was a pet. I remember that I liked to be on the floor, sometimes looking at my mom’s friends feet. I also recalled I hid sometimes under the bed when my mom had conversations with her friends, lol.

I was a kid playing unconsciously or perhaps consciously that I was a puppy. Well who knows at that young age what was the meaning of crawling on all fours and looking at Women’s feet meant…but now that I am aware of who I am, I can relate that little kid from the past and see that what I am experiencing are in a sense echoes from the past materializing in the present and shaping the future events.

It is perhaps a way I wanted to express and live my life as a kid.

Now that I am not a kid anymore, I realized that my spirit still craves to experience those feelings of humbleness, devotion and true love.

MDD is leading me to a place I have never been before, a place where I only exist to submit and obey…what can I say, I am embracing it! 

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Foot puppy

  

It was 9:10 AM when I arrived, MDD instructed me the night before to be at Her Home at 9:15 AM, I like to be punctual.  MDD told me that She would be taking Her pets for vaccines and gave me a list of chores She wanted done while She was away.

I started to vacuum up stairs, first Her studio, I cleaned it cautiously since it is where She keeps all Her books, paintings, stones, crystals and altars honoring Mother Nature. I continued to vacuum the bedrooms, then down stairs. I mopped and finished some dishes. I was about to start scrubbing Her bathtub when my phone rang. It was MDD calling me:

“Did you get all your vaccines?” She was on Her way home returning from the Vet with the doggies. I did not understand Her question at the beginning but then of course I knew She was joking about me being vaccinated as all Her pets should be. LOL, MDD understands very well my desire of being owned as one of Het pets and She was making fun of it. It feels good that We/we have established better communication and We/we both can laugh about it.  I confess that hearing Her say it was very mentally stimulating, after all I think I am now part of Her pack, LOL!

MDD arrived 5 minutes later and told me to let the doggies go out for potty. She went to Her bedroom to check Her laptop. I made sure She had a bottle of water before scrubbing Her bathtub.  I got inside it and began to scrub it on all fours, LOL…I know She likes to take baths often. After I was done, MDD said that She would take a bath now that it was clean. She stay up the stairs and I went to the kitchen to clean the counter and wash some grapes and berries for Her to eat later. She is very healthy and now that I know what She likes I make sure there is fresh veggies and fruits in the fridge for Her!

I heard MDD was calling me, She told me that the bathtub looked good but still needed some parts to be scrubbed better. She is very strict when it comes to cleanliness and I always listen to Her. I know She criticizes me so I can serve more efficiently and I like that. She wants me to give my best! I asked Her if I could go fix me a sandwich and She said that She wanted a foot massage. I told Her that eating could wait and She told me to go grab a slice of turkey and return quickly. I went to the kitchen, open the fridge and ate a piece of turkey and a slice of cheese, I was a little hungry but was also thinking about kneeling while massaging Her feet. When I  entered Her Studio MDD was lying on Her Cleopatra style couch, the one is above in the picture. She instructed me to close the door and strip, taking my clothes off feels a mixture of excitement and stress. It puts me in the right mindset, I am nothing but Her humble servant, vulnerable and blissful! There was an instrumental Andean music playing named Tinku, It was a very relaxing environment. Very appropriate to worship a Goddess...I knelt and She told me that I could start rubbing Her feet. I sat on the floor at the end of the couch, Her beautiful feet facing me.  

I personally see foot worship as an opportunity to let Her know how much I adore Her and I am learning to make it pleasurable for Her! I started to rub each toe gently, Her soles felt so warm and soft. I saw toby and burrito laying on Her couch as well, then bijou, Her kitty joined them too. The music was very pleasant and I used its rhythm to help me massage MDD’s feet harmoniously. I sensed She was enjoying it…suddenly  MDD said something like“can you put my foot in your mouth not thinking about how it feels in your mouth but how your mouth/tongue felt in my foot? ”  I said yes, I know She was referring to focusing on Her and not for my pleasure. It was a tremendous explosion of adrenaline processing what She just said. As I mentioned before giving foot attention is a ritual of worship…MDD stared at me and I knew I could start kissing Her feet. I cant find the right words to describe this moment, all I can say is that I was totally immersed in this act. I never felt that way, it was an act of devotion, the one that only can be expressed if you genuinely serve/love someone like a Superior Being. I think I disappeared in time although worshipping Her feet consciously, an act of pure devotion and purpose!

I was completely present, when I am serving MDD I need to be aware of everything is going on around me.  MDD is teaching me to pay attention to details and see things usually people just see on the surface. She is a life’s Master, so alive, vibrant, pure awareness, it is a joy every second of energy spent with Her!

My mouth was the motor of my emotions, I kissed every single spot on Her sole and on top her Feet. It felt so humbling and liberating, it was very much like She was the instrument of my adoration, my inspiration and purpose, all together…She was Venus or perhaps virgin Mary incarnated, an evolved Goddess Superior to all men.

I gently place my mouth, kissing from toe to heel and vice versa and then all over again. I had to bend over to reach Her heels, positioning my mouth softly against Her arches…making sure I kissed every spot with devotion. Every time my lips touched Her Soles or toes I felt a very nice vibration, my mouth was vibrating because the energy exuding from Her feet was too strong, MDD is very grounded. Her feet were a magnet to my mouth and my whole being felt I belonged at Her feet, breathing, smelling and lovingly kissing Her beautiful feet just like a docile puppy!  

The CD/music was about to end, MDD told me to turn it off and to get dress. I stood up, turned it off and returned sitting on the floor. She asked me about the experience and I told Her that I am learning to let go because it is not about my pleasure and how things should happen…it is not true submission. It is about Her and channeling something that pleasures me and make it pleasurable to Her, focusing on Her!

I am now having a flash back while writing these words and I am seeing that when I met Her personally I felt She was the right Master for me.  Although I am becoming like Her little pet, I also know I am a wolf and I am here to protect Her!

She lives Her life like “poetry”, MDD You are my dream come true!

Do not forget to check MDD's page: http://www.hausofmatriarchy.com/