Deeper submission

MDD:I am thinking of making a small room below the stairs. What do you think?

Me: I like the idea very much, what would you use the room for?

MDD: Why do you like the idea very much?

Me: Because you could adapt it as sort of dungeon, just an idea. You could store stuff from the garage, I can even move in there and live like a puppy lol, just kidding.

This was an interesting conversation I had with MDD very recently. MDD instructed me to transcribe the above conversation because it shows me associating a small room with my desire to live under Her roof as Her pet. It might sound crazy but it is very real and organic. MDD is creating a new reality and humbly speaking I am helping Her by embracing it organically.

It is amazing how this hausboy experience is letting me recognize aspects of my personality that were unknown or unexplored. Last Thursday for example I acted as a puppy again at MDD’s command... She was watching TV and I was putting groceries away. She said She wanted something sweet, She approached to the kitchen looking for honey, I sat on a stool, keeping an eye on Her in case She needed my service.

MDD found some honey, took a spoon and started to taste it. Suddenly some drops of honey fell on Her feet. MDD call me “come here and clean it”. I took a napkin to wipe it off and She said no “get it, eat it”.

Like I was saying above, I figured that when MDD so naturally treats me like a puppy, it triggers something inside that makes me react just like a puppy. Being on all fours on the floor while bowing to lick the honey off Her feet was just so blissful. I was completely immersed in a puppy mode. It was a very nice reward to lick the honey off until Her feet were completely clean. It was like what a puppy must feel when its Owner gives it a treat.

A pet does not hesitate to obey Her Master and do as told. I enjoyed that moment so much. I was not thinking like human for a moment, I was just being completely aware of every second. Let’s say it was a moment of “nirvana”, if you know what I mean!

I believe we all have the power to create our reality but we need to be hopeful to meet the right people...MDD is that kind of person, She mentioned the other day how important is to reconcile and connect from the present with our past and future.

Feeling like a puppy is connected to this thoughts perhaps fantasies when I was a kid and crawled and played that I was a pet. I remember that I liked to be on the floor, sometimes looking at my mom’s friends feet. I also recalled I hid sometimes under the bed when my mom had conversations with her friends, lol.

I was a kid playing unconsciously or perhaps consciously that I was a puppy. Well who knows at that young age what was the meaning of crawling on all fours and looking at Women’s feet meant…but now that I am aware of who I am, I can relate that little kid from the past and see that what I am experiencing are in a sense echoes from the past materializing in the present and shaping the future events.

It is perhaps a way I wanted to express and live my life as a kid.

Now that I am not a kid anymore, I realized that my spirit still craves to experience those feelings of humbleness, devotion and true love.

MDD is leading me to a place I have never been before, a place where I only exist to submit and obey…what can I say, I am embracing it! 

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http://www.hausofmatriarchy.com/