Master & Ama

 Now I have a better idea when I address to MDD as Master or mi Ama as I sometimes call Her. I understand the concept intimately, it is very meaningful when I say it.  Last night MDD told me that She wanted to see a movie so We/we drove to the cinema, when We/we arrived there were no parking available. We were late for the movies, MDD was getting upset, She got out of the car and told me to find a parking lot nearby. She said that We/we were too late for the movies that now She wanted to get a drink at a bar and have dinner. She told me to meet Her at Shogun, a restaurant around the corner where We/we were in the car.

I drove until the end of the plaza and did not find any parking available, I had to park at Costco’s parking lots across from the plaza. I headed to the bar, entered and looked for MDD, I saw Her ordering a drink to the bartender and approached to Her. We were there having a drink waiting for a table, the place was full and vibrant…I was standing next to Her, She was sitting on a stool, just moments ago I had experienced one of the strongest feelings of ownership. 

When I arrived to Her home before going to the movies, the door was unlock, I entered and texted MDD letting Her know I was down the stairs, suddenly, She summoned me and asked for some water. I went to the kitchen and filled a glass of water. When I returned to the studio, I felt something different in the environment, I handed Her the water and She told me that I would be disciplined before going to the movies. She asked me if I knew why I was going to be punished and I said not really. She scolded me and argued about me forgetting Her telling me that I owed Her some spanking…anyway, She said She did not need a reason to spank me.

She informed me that She would be testing my pain tolerance and instructed me to stand up by the door and strip. MDD was sitting on Her chair next to Her desk, I started to undress knowing that soon my bottoms would be red and hurting. When I was naked MDD told me to kneel and start crawling towards Her. I was taken into subspace when I reached Her feet, She told me to show my worship positions… I confess now that presenting myself naked groveling at Her feet performing these worship positions is definitely a spiritual experience.

 I understand why people can be religious or honor Mother Nature. MDD is a great highly evolved human being and has made me discovered true feelings of devotion and ownership as Her property.

 Kneeling and bowing has become like meditating, I feel great synergy while doing these worship positions. It is like I connect with the universe and led to a place where there is a different understanding that can not be perceived in our ordinary daily routines. I am absolutely in another state of awareness. I am able to feel pure love and the meaning of adoration. Now, It is so much more significant my experience as hausboy, serving and getting to know MDD helped me understand clearly the concept of being a slave. She is a fine Master and I am Her devotee. When I kneel to Her and worship I am present and see no difference between future and past, all is happening is framed in a second!

I do not know exactly how long I was kneeling and praying to Her, for me it all happened in no time…MDD told me to get closer over Her Knee, I started to sense my breathing was faster, I was over Her knee just like a child waiting for Mom to be spanked. This was the first time I was been spanked over the knee and it felt very surreal. MDD was testing my pain tolerance paddling me making sure I would take it naturally. She scolded me for being so tense and pushed me down and forced me to relax my body. She said that if I was too tense while She spanked me, I would not be able to understand its purpose.

 I began to let it go and focus on relaxing and letting go... She proceed to spank me with Her bare hands and it was when I clicked, every time MDD spanked me with Her hands I was transported to my early childhood. It felt I was a little boy being punished by Mommy. Although it was hurting and my bottoms were getting very red, I was at the same time having these emotions of belonging and pure love, the one that can only be given by a Mother. It is not that I want MDD to be my Mom is just that I felt like I was Her son…or more like being Her pet.

Suddenly MDD stopped spanking me and ordered me to kneel up, She asked me about how I felt and to describe my experience. Being totally vulnerable, naked, kneeling before Her explaining what I felt made me realized that I need Her approval and advise. I am feeling that I am more just like one more of Her pets who genuinely worship and love Her…I am feeling I am becoming Her property and likes Her affection. It is very good to be able to embrace my submission and obey Her without expectations. Truly living in the now and in tune with Mother Nature!

Finally, after We/we came back home from Shogun, We went to the TV room. She laid on the sofa and started to watch a movie. I was standing next to Her and She told me that She wanted a foot massage. I sat on the sofa and She place Her feet on my lap. I would say that We/we do not have much physical contact so massaging Her feet is an opportunity to show my affection. 

I rubbed every toe gently and massaged Her soles devotedly for almost the entire movie. I looked at Her timidly and asked if I could kiss Her feet, She nods smoothly…I wish I could have been able to lick Her toes and arches gently. I find foot worship a humbling act to honor a Woman and in this case MDD, my Master!

The film was about to finish, She was very calm, all Her doggies leaning/lying against Her body.  I felt again part of Her pack, She was watching this movie enjoying a placid time with Her pets!

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