Not Sufficient

MDD : Ur apology was not sufficient in light of ur comments. I am tired of expending energy on u. If that hurt ur feelings then u don't get it. U don't understand when I say things. Sometimes can't hear me!!!!

me: I have never had something so real to be controled and learned to be quiet, it is a new experience for me MDD...I want to be an asset for u not to bother u...that's what i am trying to figure out, to learn to be ur shadow, it's hard MDD.

MDD : U don't think. I just act. I mean you just act. You just do the first thing that comes into that meat head of urs. And it's ur "man" act. Reread ur apology make it better. Include this conversation type it out. I make u transcribe for ur own good. To reread my words. I didn't call u on purpose Sunday because I was trying to enjoy my day. And u kept interrupting to the point that I didn't want to speak to u anymore. Yesterday I wanted the door done and I had plans to have a business dinner which I took my time to tell you about even tho I did not need to tell you what I was doing. Me not seeing u had nothing to do with u. It was all about me. My door, my plans. My business deal. So tiring.

me : I understand

Above is the second part of the conversation after the incident at The Haus of Matriarchy. Today is the beginning of November, still in NYC for the weekend and I haven't seen MDD since awhile ago. I was also for a week or so in DC for work.

As I mentioned on my profile I am in the military and although life can be hard sometimes, I think that I am mentally and physically prepared to face the most challenging situations. "Peace is not a soldier's job but sometimes only a soldier can do it", LOL...I love this line... 

This trip has been very joyful and helped to see things with a different perspestive, especially regarding to my future goals, life purpose and obviously my "relationship" with The Haus of Matriarchy.

I am about to start packing for my flight but before that I wanted to post the previous conversations and to write about them as instructed by MDD. Always remember that among some other things submission is mainly about obedience! 

I honestly would say that because of my background I can adapt, adjust to almost any situation...And it is precisaly what I am doing now. MDD has been disciplining me after the last inconvenient at The Haus of Matriarchy and I am doing my best in order to be more thoughtful and aware of.

I made a terrible mistake and as I believe in Karma life is making me pay...or better MDD is making me pay for it.

I would also like to talk about the amazing things I feel while I serve MDD, it is very fun and She is great but now it is not the time for it...I can't wait to return to California where I live and see the coming chapters of my days and my future with The Haus of Matriarchy.

I would like to leave for now with the following thought :

Submission is an art form, an instinctual need for service in its purity of selfless giving. Femininity in all shapes and forms melts my heart and drives my desire!

I hope you have the time of your life! 

Check MDD'S page if You want to know about serving Her : http://www.hausofmatriarchy.com/