Deeper submission

MDD:I am thinking of making a small room below the stairs. What do you think?

Me: I like the idea very much, what would you use the room for?

MDD: Why do you like the idea very much?

Me: Because you could adapt it as sort of dungeon, just an idea. You could store stuff from the garage, I can even move in there and live like a puppy lol, just kidding.

This was an interesting conversation I had with MDD very recently. MDD instructed me to transcribe the above conversation because it shows me associating a small room with my desire to live under Her roof as Her pet. It might sound crazy but it is very real and organic. MDD is creating a new reality and humbly speaking I am helping Her by embracing it organically.

It is amazing how this hausboy experience is letting me recognize aspects of my personality that were unknown or unexplored. Last Thursday for example I acted as a puppy again at MDD’s command... She was watching TV and I was putting groceries away. She said She wanted something sweet, She approached to the kitchen looking for honey, I sat on a stool, keeping an eye on Her in case She needed my service.

MDD found some honey, took a spoon and started to taste it. Suddenly some drops of honey fell on Her feet. MDD call me “come here and clean it”. I took a napkin to wipe it off and She said no “get it, eat it”.

Like I was saying above, I figured that when MDD so naturally treats me like a puppy, it triggers something inside that makes me react just like a puppy. Being on all fours on the floor while bowing to lick the honey off Her feet was just so blissful. I was completely immersed in a puppy mode. It was a very nice reward to lick the honey off until Her feet were completely clean. It was like what a puppy must feel when its Owner gives it a treat.

A pet does not hesitate to obey Her Master and do as told. I enjoyed that moment so much. I was not thinking like human for a moment, I was just being completely aware of every second. Let’s say it was a moment of “nirvana”, if you know what I mean!

I believe we all have the power to create our reality but we need to be hopeful to meet the right people...MDD is that kind of person, She mentioned the other day how important is to reconcile and connect from the present with our past and future.

Feeling like a puppy is connected to this thoughts perhaps fantasies when I was a kid and crawled and played that I was a pet. I remember that I liked to be on the floor, sometimes looking at my mom’s friends feet. I also recalled I hid sometimes under the bed when my mom had conversations with her friends, lol.

I was a kid playing unconsciously or perhaps consciously that I was a puppy. Well who knows at that young age what was the meaning of crawling on all fours and looking at Women’s feet meant…but now that I am aware of who I am, I can relate that little kid from the past and see that what I am experiencing are in a sense echoes from the past materializing in the present and shaping the future events.

It is perhaps a way I wanted to express and live my life as a kid.

Now that I am not a kid anymore, I realized that my spirit still craves to experience those feelings of humbleness, devotion and true love.

MDD is leading me to a place I have never been before, a place where I only exist to submit and obey…what can I say, I am embracing it! 

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Foot puppy

  

It was 9:10 AM when I arrived, MDD instructed me the night before to be at Her Home at 9:15 AM, I like to be punctual.  MDD told me that She would be taking Her pets for vaccines and gave me a list of chores She wanted done while She was away.

I started to vacuum up stairs, first Her studio, I cleaned it cautiously since it is where She keeps all Her books, paintings, stones, crystals and altars honoring Mother Nature. I continued to vacuum the bedrooms, then down stairs. I mopped and finished some dishes. I was about to start scrubbing Her bathtub when my phone rang. It was MDD calling me:

“Did you get all your vaccines?” She was on Her way home returning from the Vet with the doggies. I did not understand Her question at the beginning but then of course I knew She was joking about me being vaccinated as all Her pets should be. LOL, MDD understands very well my desire of being owned as one of Het pets and She was making fun of it. It feels good that We/we have established better communication and We/we both can laugh about it.  I confess that hearing Her say it was very mentally stimulating, after all I think I am now part of Her pack, LOL!

MDD arrived 5 minutes later and told me to let the doggies go out for potty. She went to Her bedroom to check Her laptop. I made sure She had a bottle of water before scrubbing Her bathtub.  I got inside it and began to scrub it on all fours, LOL…I know She likes to take baths often. After I was done, MDD said that She would take a bath now that it was clean. She stay up the stairs and I went to the kitchen to clean the counter and wash some grapes and berries for Her to eat later. She is very healthy and now that I know what She likes I make sure there is fresh veggies and fruits in the fridge for Her!

I heard MDD was calling me, She told me that the bathtub looked good but still needed some parts to be scrubbed better. She is very strict when it comes to cleanliness and I always listen to Her. I know She criticizes me so I can serve more efficiently and I like that. She wants me to give my best! I asked Her if I could go fix me a sandwich and She said that She wanted a foot massage. I told Her that eating could wait and She told me to go grab a slice of turkey and return quickly. I went to the kitchen, open the fridge and ate a piece of turkey and a slice of cheese, I was a little hungry but was also thinking about kneeling while massaging Her feet. When I  entered Her Studio MDD was lying on Her Cleopatra style couch, the one is above in the picture. She instructed me to close the door and strip, taking my clothes off feels a mixture of excitement and stress. It puts me in the right mindset, I am nothing but Her humble servant, vulnerable and blissful! There was an instrumental Andean music playing named Tinku, It was a very relaxing environment. Very appropriate to worship a Goddess...I knelt and She told me that I could start rubbing Her feet. I sat on the floor at the end of the couch, Her beautiful feet facing me.  

I personally see foot worship as an opportunity to let Her know how much I adore Her and I am learning to make it pleasurable for Her! I started to rub each toe gently, Her soles felt so warm and soft. I saw toby and burrito laying on Her couch as well, then bijou, Her kitty joined them too. The music was very pleasant and I used its rhythm to help me massage MDD’s feet harmoniously. I sensed She was enjoying it…suddenly  MDD said something like“can you put my foot in your mouth not thinking about how it feels in your mouth but how your mouth/tongue felt in my foot? ”  I said yes, I know She was referring to focusing on Her and not for my pleasure. It was a tremendous explosion of adrenaline processing what She just said. As I mentioned before giving foot attention is a ritual of worship…MDD stared at me and I knew I could start kissing Her feet. I cant find the right words to describe this moment, all I can say is that I was totally immersed in this act. I never felt that way, it was an act of devotion, the one that only can be expressed if you genuinely serve/love someone like a Superior Being. I think I disappeared in time although worshipping Her feet consciously, an act of pure devotion and purpose!

I was completely present, when I am serving MDD I need to be aware of everything is going on around me.  MDD is teaching me to pay attention to details and see things usually people just see on the surface. She is a life’s Master, so alive, vibrant, pure awareness, it is a joy every second of energy spent with Her!

My mouth was the motor of my emotions, I kissed every single spot on Her sole and on top her Feet. It felt so humbling and liberating, it was very much like She was the instrument of my adoration, my inspiration and purpose, all together…She was Venus or perhaps virgin Mary incarnated, an evolved Goddess Superior to all men.

I gently place my mouth, kissing from toe to heel and vice versa and then all over again. I had to bend over to reach Her heels, positioning my mouth softly against Her arches…making sure I kissed every spot with devotion. Every time my lips touched Her Soles or toes I felt a very nice vibration, my mouth was vibrating because the energy exuding from Her feet was too strong, MDD is very grounded. Her feet were a magnet to my mouth and my whole being felt I belonged at Her feet, breathing, smelling and lovingly kissing Her beautiful feet just like a docile puppy!  

The CD/music was about to end, MDD told me to turn it off and to get dress. I stood up, turned it off and returned sitting on the floor. She asked me about the experience and I told Her that I am learning to let go because it is not about my pleasure and how things should happen…it is not true submission. It is about Her and channeling something that pleasures me and make it pleasurable to Her, focusing on Her!

I am now having a flash back while writing these words and I am seeing that when I met Her personally I felt She was the right Master for me.  Although I am becoming like Her little pet, I also know I am a wolf and I am here to protect Her!

She lives Her life like “poetry”, MDD You are my dream come true!

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Pet Feelings

I just want to sit on the floor at Her feet when I am not doing chores or serving Her with other tasks. Being on the floor listening to Her or just silent is a way of honoring Her while I am serving at Her home. MDD is a true Master, She knows how to keep me on my toes, She made me Her slave. I feel joy being Her servant. There are times when She is at the studio on Her laptop and I am fetching Her a glass of water that I feel to act like a pet. I know She is busy and I don’t want to disturb Her, I just have the impulse of being groveling at Her feet, kiss them as I see the puppies doing it and I just want to do the same.

Last night while We/we were at Her studio, I was completely naked sitting on the floor, She was sitting on Her chair and I was expressing Her about how lately I was feeling like I was owned like Her pet. I told Her that I was having a genuine experience of submission after I returned from South America, the experience of feeling She was My Queen, Her property.

Sometimes, while I am doing dishes or making Her bed I have these thoughts of sleeping in a cage in Her bedroom: “Then next morning while I am still in the cage, She wakes up, I pictured Her walking towards the cage, lift Her foot and place it on top of the cage, I looked at Her and lovingly lick Her soles and toes”. If you have been following my blog you may know that foot worship is something I love and it has become a way to express affection and love.

 MDD actually has a cage for Her doggies in the bedroom…It is too small for me, LOL. I just think that I would sleep in a cage just to have the pleasure of sharing Her space. So far serving MDD has made me feel that I am owned as Her puppy/pet. It is perhaps one of the strongest things in life I have ever experienced… that is making me perceive that I am very alive. It puts my mind in a state of total awareness and peacefulness, I feel my instincts are sharper and my thoughts clearly expanded.

I take care of Her Pets when I am home, I feed them, pet them and ironically this is letting me see that I am like them…I mean pets are the most loyal and truly worship their owners. MDD treats me very much like one of them. I kneel or sit on the floor when I am in Her studio which is a sacred place in the house. She corrects me when I do something wrong, disciplines me and spanks me whenever She wants to…the dynamic is very clear She gives me orders and I obey Her.

The other day for example when We/we returned home from the mall She told me to remove Her boots, She was sitting on a couch in the TV room and I was sitting on the floor. She extended one boot at a time and place on my shoulder. I unzipped them and put them on the floor, She stood up, looked at me smiling and walked up the stairs and told me “you can smell them now, I know you want to”. It was a very powerful moment, now I know MDD knows that I like the smell of Her feet, especially when fresh out of Her boots. I think I am definitely more like a puppy, I am even finding pleasure when I smell Her boots, LOL…to be continued

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slave's etiquette

Introduction to slave Etiquette 

I have to start by stating that no male slave can hope to write authoritatively on slave etiquette; at best he can try to distil some of what he has learned from his Female superiors. Their views, too, may differ; each Lady has Her own beliefs and preferences. Consequently, this essay does not presume to set out rules of slave etiquette which are right for all slaves and all Mistresses everywhere and at all times. Rather it focuses on the sort of behavior expected of male slaves interacting with the Superior Ladies such as “Mistress Torrie” and “Goddess Dyme” (my owners).

What is Slave Etiquette?

“Etiquette”, in relation to any group in society, is the conventional but usually unwritten code of practice for that group, or to put it another way, the rules governing what constitutes correct or acceptable behavior for members of that group. “Slave Etiquette”, in the context of this essay, is the code of set of rules governing what constitutes correct or acceptable behavior for the slaves in the Temple.

Slave Grammar

As the main medium of communication is the written word, it is essential that the slave follows the accepted grammatical conventions when writing for a readership that may include Dominas.

Firstly, all words referring to Females should begin with a capital letter, whereas no words referring to males should begin with one. This includes pronouns and the use of the word “I/i”. Thus, where the writer is male and he is writing to a Lady, for example, it is not permissible to write: “I am writing in response to your last e-mail”. The correct form would be “i am writing in response to Your last e-mail”.

Where a group pronoun is used and it refers to males and Females, the usual practice is to write both versions separated by an oblique stroke, thus: “We/we”; “They/they. The version with the capital letter must naturally go first.

In fact, the rule “Ladies first” applies to grammar generally. Thus: “Mistress A and myself went to Burbank”, not “Me and Mistress A went to Burbank”.

In keeping with the rules that the slave should be modest and not draw attention to himself unnecessarily, some Ladies prefer the slave to dispense completely with the use of the word “i”; so instead of writing “i have finished my writing assignment”, the slave should write “Your slave has finished his writing assignment”.

As with other rules of slave etiquette, if a Lady prefers the slave not to do any of the above, he should respect Her wishes.

One additional point: the slave’s written communications should otherwise follow all the usual rules of grammar. It should not contain any grammatical or spelling mistakes, especially mistakes in the spelling of the Domina’s name. Sloppy English is sloppy service and the Ladies are entitled to expect only the best service from their slaves.

Entering and exiting

Whenever entering or leaving a room, slaves should generally beg permission to enter or depart of any and every Lady in the room. This should be done to each Lady individually unless permission has been given for you to do it collectively. The only exception to this is if the slave is aware that the Lady in question does not wish them to do this.

Until permission has been given, the slave must wait where they are and should not attempt to leave or participate in the discussion without permission.

The logic of begging to enter is that it is a privilege to be in the presence of a Domina and one which is totally at Her discretion to grant or withhold; therefore the slave must beg for that privilege to be granted.

Similarly, the slave must ask permission to leave as a sign of respect to the Domina. To merely up and leave without a word is tantamount to turning one’s back on Her, which is very rude, especially when She has granted the slave the privilege of being in Her presence. Also, the Lady’s desires are paramount and She might not desire him to leave at that point.

Addressing a Domina

When addressing a Domina, slaves should make sure that they include Her name in the sentence. So, not: “Please may I be excused?” or even, “Please may I be excused, Mistress?”, but “Please may i be excused, Divine Mistress Torrie?”  or “Please may I enter Goddess Dyme?”

Slaves must also ensure that they show each Domina the proper respect by getting Her right. This means that if the Lady likes to be called Goddess  A, then you address Her as Goddess  A, not Mistress or Mistress A. If you are not sure how the Lady likes to be addressed, ask Her.  For example, “Excuse me, Madame, but how do You prefer to be addressed?” You should also apologize for not knowing. The good slave finds out this sort of thing beforehand so that he does not have to bother the Lady with questions.

Asking Stupid Questions

The Ladies are very perceptive; they know that men are dumb and they do not need a particular male to prove it by continually asking dumb questions. Think before you talk, and do so with the organ in your head, not the one between your legs. Otherwise you will just irritate the Ladies and then you’ll be sorry.

Saying Thank You

Finally, after you have had a talk with a Domina, thank Her for Her time. It’s the least that You can do. Her time is precious and yet She has chosen to spend it brightening up your miserable existence, you pathetic little worm! Isn’t She wonderful?

Conclusion

Serving the Ladies is a privilege, not a right. If you do not wish to lose that privilege, then you must learn how to behave properly in Their presence. That means learning the general rules of slave etiquette; but it is not just a matter of learning one set of rules. Every Lady is different and has different desires and expectations; it is our duty as slaves to get to know them all so that we behave toward every Lady in a way which is pleasing to Her. So really the first rule of slave etiquette should be:

“Strive to know the Lady’s requirements that you may serve Her as She wishes to be served”.

Thanks to slave bitch brian for his contribution

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Master & Ama

 Now I have a better idea when I address to MDD as Master or mi Ama as I sometimes call Her. I understand the concept intimately, it is very meaningful when I say it.  Last night MDD told me that She wanted to see a movie so We/we drove to the cinema, when We/we arrived there were no parking available. We were late for the movies, MDD was getting upset, She got out of the car and told me to find a parking lot nearby. She said that We/we were too late for the movies that now She wanted to get a drink at a bar and have dinner. She told me to meet Her at Shogun, a restaurant around the corner where We/we were in the car.

I drove until the end of the plaza and did not find any parking available, I had to park at Costco’s parking lots across from the plaza. I headed to the bar, entered and looked for MDD, I saw Her ordering a drink to the bartender and approached to Her. We were there having a drink waiting for a table, the place was full and vibrant…I was standing next to Her, She was sitting on a stool, just moments ago I had experienced one of the strongest feelings of ownership. 

When I arrived to Her home before going to the movies, the door was unlock, I entered and texted MDD letting Her know I was down the stairs, suddenly, She summoned me and asked for some water. I went to the kitchen and filled a glass of water. When I returned to the studio, I felt something different in the environment, I handed Her the water and She told me that I would be disciplined before going to the movies. She asked me if I knew why I was going to be punished and I said not really. She scolded me and argued about me forgetting Her telling me that I owed Her some spanking…anyway, She said She did not need a reason to spank me.

She informed me that She would be testing my pain tolerance and instructed me to stand up by the door and strip. MDD was sitting on Her chair next to Her desk, I started to undress knowing that soon my bottoms would be red and hurting. When I was naked MDD told me to kneel and start crawling towards Her. I was taken into subspace when I reached Her feet, She told me to show my worship positions… I confess now that presenting myself naked groveling at Her feet performing these worship positions is definitely a spiritual experience.

 I understand why people can be religious or honor Mother Nature. MDD is a great highly evolved human being and has made me discovered true feelings of devotion and ownership as Her property.

 Kneeling and bowing has become like meditating, I feel great synergy while doing these worship positions. It is like I connect with the universe and led to a place where there is a different understanding that can not be perceived in our ordinary daily routines. I am absolutely in another state of awareness. I am able to feel pure love and the meaning of adoration. Now, It is so much more significant my experience as hausboy, serving and getting to know MDD helped me understand clearly the concept of being a slave. She is a fine Master and I am Her devotee. When I kneel to Her and worship I am present and see no difference between future and past, all is happening is framed in a second!

I do not know exactly how long I was kneeling and praying to Her, for me it all happened in no time…MDD told me to get closer over Her Knee, I started to sense my breathing was faster, I was over Her knee just like a child waiting for Mom to be spanked. This was the first time I was been spanked over the knee and it felt very surreal. MDD was testing my pain tolerance paddling me making sure I would take it naturally. She scolded me for being so tense and pushed me down and forced me to relax my body. She said that if I was too tense while She spanked me, I would not be able to understand its purpose.

 I began to let it go and focus on relaxing and letting go... She proceed to spank me with Her bare hands and it was when I clicked, every time MDD spanked me with Her hands I was transported to my early childhood. It felt I was a little boy being punished by Mommy. Although it was hurting and my bottoms were getting very red, I was at the same time having these emotions of belonging and pure love, the one that can only be given by a Mother. It is not that I want MDD to be my Mom is just that I felt like I was Her son…or more like being Her pet.

Suddenly MDD stopped spanking me and ordered me to kneel up, She asked me about how I felt and to describe my experience. Being totally vulnerable, naked, kneeling before Her explaining what I felt made me realized that I need Her approval and advise. I am feeling that I am more just like one more of Her pets who genuinely worship and love Her…I am feeling I am becoming Her property and likes Her affection. It is very good to be able to embrace my submission and obey Her without expectations. Truly living in the now and in tune with Mother Nature!

Finally, after We/we came back home from Shogun, We went to the TV room. She laid on the sofa and started to watch a movie. I was standing next to Her and She told me that She wanted a foot massage. I sat on the sofa and She place Her feet on my lap. I would say that We/we do not have much physical contact so massaging Her feet is an opportunity to show my affection. 

I rubbed every toe gently and massaged Her soles devotedly for almost the entire movie. I looked at Her timidly and asked if I could kiss Her feet, She nods smoothly…I wish I could have been able to lick Her toes and arches gently. I find foot worship a humbling act to honor a Woman and in this case MDD, my Master!

The film was about to finish, She was very calm, all Her doggies leaning/lying against Her body.  I felt again part of Her pack, She was watching this movie enjoying a placid time with Her pets!

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New Phase

It's been so amazing to come back and discover a new phase during my real experience serving MDD. So many events have occurred and I don’t even know where to start…
One of the first events during the beginning of this year was the full Moon ritual. MDD told me to come for the first full Moon of the year, Her friend Mary (not her real name) came to be part of the ritual as well. I first was instructed to make sure all look clean, put stuff away and then burn some incense around the Haus.

MDD is a Reiki Master and likes to create a clean vibrant environment for the Moon ceremony. She told me to prepare also the fireworks. When everything was ready She and Mary came down stairs and sat on comfortable cushions which I was already set by the fireplace.

She asked me to fetch Her water and then to bring Her slippers and to get my stone ready for the full Moon. She was explaining us about the things to do during the ritual. After She was done with the introduction, We/we all went outside to the yard with the stones to see the full Moon, I said the Mantra at MDD’s command and it was very peaceful!

We were outside probably for 15 minutes, it was a cold night and the Moon was glowing powerfully. We finished with the ritual and returned to the fireplace. MDD brought drummers for us to use in a drum circle to build energy and We/we all ended up playing them while receiving the white light coming from the full Moon through the windows.

The first weekend after the full Moon, We/we went to a winery for brunch. It was a very sunny day, We/we ate healthy food and some wine. Back home, I started to organize the garage, putting Christmas stuff away and moving things making room. MDD said that She was going to a bar for Her girlfriend’s birthday and wanted me to go with Her. I was so pleased; it was the first time She took me to a bar with Her friends.

I heard MDD was getting ready for the club, She was upset because She could not find the right shoes to match Her dress. She asked me if I had seen them and told me to look for them. I went to check Her shoes around the house but did not find them. She finally found a pair of black heels that were not what She wanted to wear but that suit Her dress...She was about to be ready to leave so I went to the garage where I had my clothes ready to wear at the bar. I changed and went to the living room waiting for MDD to leave to the club.

We went to this bar located at a very popular casino in the Southern CA. At the club, I was making sure MDD had a drink and also water, She loves dancing and drinks a lot of water. While She was dancing with Her friends, they started playing some Latin “Merengue” music, I love dancing this music and decided to go to the dance floor thinking I may dance with MDD...I recalled I thought what “if She gets upset for inviting Her to dance”…anyway, I approached to Her and extended my arm, She took my hand and We/we danced very nicely, it was a very special moment, not every day one gets the chance to dance with Master.

After the song, We returned to the table but I first went to the bar to order shots for Her and Her girlfriends. When I returned to the table, I sat on a couch, I turned back and Saw MDD approaching from the dancing floor, She stood up leaning against the bar couch where I was, I handed Her water and then She touched caressing my hair. I looked up Her with devotion and gently rubbed my head against Her belly, it felt very nice, She was showing me Her affection and that made me feel very comfortable and thankful!

After one more hour at this bar MDD informed me that We/we would go for a final drink and eat some tacos at Her girlfriend’s former bar job. I drove Her the whole night and She warned me about drinking heavily, I was to drive Her home safely and I did.
Back at home, She went upstairs to Her room and I slept on a sofa by the TV room. Next day, We/we woke up late, got ready and went to Thai Kitchen, one of Her favorite restaurants in town...I have very good memories from this place since it was where She first interviewed me to be in service to Her.

When we returned Home, She went to Her bedroom to check Her e-mails and work on Her laptop, I stay downstairs doing some dishes and moping. Suddenly, MDD summoned me, She asked me if I wanted to see a movie with Her, I obviously said yes and was going to head to the TV room, She stopped me and told me to quietly join Her, She wanted to watch the movie in Her laptop lying on Her bed. So I laid at Her right side. There were also bijou Her kitti and tobi one of the doggies lying on the bottom of Her bed at Her feet.

MDD was laughing at this movie. It was one of those old first movies about vampires and was very funny to see how the pioneers of this type of films created situations. While watching this funny movie I saw bijou licking Her feet and I wish it was me...After that, She told me She wanted to take a nap so I left Her alone, it is good to know Her moods better, I kind of know what She needs without saying it!

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My Pole to Earth!

It was the end of the last year, I was still overseas  and I missed serving MDD at the Haus of Matriarchy so much… But everything happens for a reason, I felt renovated and with great desires of contributing to make MDD’s Femdom project very successful!

One of my main goals is to keep providing information about the intriguing yet not so well known world of Femdom & Matriarchy. This blog is managed by MDD, a public Matriarchal Leader and Femdom Master, She is a Woman but She does not use the term Mistress. It has been a year since I was fortunate enough to be considered to be in service to Her. I am very grateful to serve although strict and firm also, intelligent, adorable Woman. As you may know I have great passion to the Femdom/Matriarchy lifestyle, I simply adore MDD and Her Matriarchal vision!

It is no secret that we live in a male-dominated society and in a way is ironic since it is the men who crave to be dominated by beautiful and powerful Women. I personally have improved many aspects in my life while serving as a houseboy. MDD taught me to focus on details, follow an agenda and schedule. She is a very organized, cautious Master and let me see how essential is to work detail fully.

I used to omit these details because I used to think more about the result instead of the process. I used to overview things in general not in detail. I am now much more responsible and patient but it was not easy. There were times when I felt I was doing everything wrongly and sort of disappointed Her…I want to think MDD saw I had potential and decided to guide me and discipline me when necessary. Consequently, helping me achieve what She had in mind.

 I think MDD is My pole to Earth, She made me aware of the ways of Mother Nature, to worship, honor, respect and protect Her… serving  MDD personally and domestically have been part of my grounding and improvement to pay attention to details!

Now I see that one of the ways a male learns to be more self aware is throughout discipline, whether verbally, spanked, flogged, whipped, humiliated or working on special projects. So what is the source of such desire? In a way, this behavior is driven by our primal needs and desires. Although I believe some men are more self aware than others, discipline will be an excellent tool used by Dominant Women to help males evolve and submit!

The core belief is that Female is truly Superior comparing to a male since only a Female is able to give birth. This is true for all species on Earth (but the sea horse). Whatever the reason may be; the inner male-child having memories of a strict Mother, or a strict Female Teacher from childhood, an intense career at work where a male has power and responsibility to control other individuals…Eventually it is genuinely the male’s need to surrender to a powerful Dominant Woman!

I personally have experienced all these things while serving MDD, She has not forced me to submit or serve. It is my primal, spiritual needs and desires that respond to Her aura of beauty, Superiority and natural Feminine Domination that She exudes! Female Domination is a very real lifestyle for many people that comes in a form of sharing your life serving a Female Master that practice Female Domination on a day-to day basis!

Learning to serve MDD more efficiently has been a gradual process. I have polished my skills and feel much more stable in life mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

I was seeking harder to fulfill my Female Domination and submission desires until I was blessed to meet MDD…Ideally in a lifetime servitude form of domestic discipline, not all males will succeed in finding the right Female Master, but those who succeed will experience a liberating and happy life!

To Goddess and MDD!

Last Full Moon Dec 2010

This night was full Moon in this part of the world and also was the winter Equinox. It was one of the biggest Moons I have ever seen. It had yellowish and red colors, it took my breath away, something overwhelming... a great start before Christmas. This event made me think about MDD's goal about building a Temple which will allow full Sun or Moon and stars to be light where The Sisterhood of Matriarchy Femdom may view any entertainment that might take place in this sacred Temple.
It will be a place for worship and meditation and as MDD describes it : It will be facing the four corners perfectly, the circular inner sanctum, which is Inka Oo throne room. Rituals of worship to the Supreme one who manifest Herself through the Body of Her High Priestess and Priestesses from the Sisterhood of Femdom. A select group of highly evolved Dominant Women who during any time of the year will be disciplining any male.
If you have been following this blog you will know that Matriarchy is part of my belief system and that I believe patriarchy is a failure. That is why the discipline of any male is necessary to purify them. Within the walls of Her sacred Temple, a male's humble sacrifice is accepted by The Sisters with hunger and gratitude.
As MDD mentions : This sacred place will have a whipping post, located down a walking path away from from the main Temple. Here, The Sisterhood can sit comfortably on benches that circle the whipping post, while witnessing a plain air discipline of a slave, day or night! Daytime will offer the chance for pure exposure and humiliation of the slave while all present, including the Sun, can see clearly as the red lashes of the whip cut into the skin of the male.

If you want to know more about this Temple and become one of the chosen one slaves check MDD's page at :
http://www.hausofmatriarchy.com/

DomconLA 2010

One of the first things that come to my mind when I think about Domcon is registering at the event and getting ready for serving MDD publicly during this event. I had to admit that I was not too experience to follow M/s protocols. For instance, I had to carry Her bag/purse, not to speak unless spoken to, fetch Her drinks while She was talking to other Dommes/Doms. At night when attending to the Domcon party/ball She instructed me to walk a step behind Her and when She stopped to greet a friend or so I had to wait standing close to Her, making eye contact in case She may need anything. I follow Her around like Her shadow, I was there to serve and protect Her like a loyal servant.
Next day while at the hotel I open doors for Her when entering a restaurant, She ordered my meal while I admire Her beauty and wonderful Dominant strong presence. I recalled this day at the restaurant She introduced me to Her believes. MDD is a public Female Supremacist and She believes in Matriarchy as the natural life order which will bring balance to the world! She told me that once Matriarchy has come full circle there will be a karmic balance and war and greed, the result of a patriarchy society should disappear. And that is why most men must pay for their mistakes and the failure of patriarchy.
Still at the restaurant She informed me that one of Her main goals during this convention was to promote Her work as a Matriarchal Leader .And one of my main assignments was to memorize The Sun Queen's Mantra, a praise of the trinity of the Supreme Dyme Inka Oo, in other words the only one above Her, the Holy Spirit that rules our Solar System! MDD asked me about the Mantra and for my misfortune I told Her that I had not memorized it completely. She looked at me with intensity and scolded me by reminding me how important was to memorize it. She is a high Priestess who represents Goddess on Earth when She is drawing down the Moon. She was not pleased and told me that I would pay when We/we returned to the hotel's room.
Back in the room MDD started to boss me around : "draco hang up my clothes, fetch me a drink, give me a foot rub" and so on. I could tell She was upset or maybe mad, I could see that on Her face. She scolded me again for not memorizing the Mantra and informed me that I was about to be disciplined for such mistake. I had clear instructions to memorize it for Domcon, I tried to justify myself and She got really mad. I could not justify what I had done.
I confess that I was a little scared because it was the first time I was about to be punished by MDD. I was standing with my arms on my back while carefully listening to Her words. I was ordered to strip quietly. She humiliated me by saying that I was Her slut, She emphasized that I had not a valid excuse. I saw myself crawling on the floor and groveling at Her feet. She was wearing these beautiful high heel boots, a corset and a black skirt. She then ordered me to be on a standing position with my eyes cast down and with hands against my thighs. MDD started to hit my bottom with a paddle testing my pain tolerance, I kind of whine a little but She made sure I took it naturally because I deserved it. She said "it is not Earthly use in whining, draco" and consequently continue to paddle me again. She told me I was being disciplined because there was a clearly pattern of disobedience that needed to be addressed and that She would not tolerate. She hit all over my bottom and made sure it got red.
MDD sat on Her bed once She was done with my punishment and gave me a contemptuous wicked laugh. She ordered me to kneel at Her feet, Her sharp boot's heels on the floor echoing while She moved them. She pointed at Her boots and instructed me to take them off. To be honest I felt such a priviledge to be naked kneeling at Her gorgeous feet, She had me there bowing kissing Her feet until told to stop. Then She instructed me from the kneeling position to lie down on the floor facing up, Her beautiful feet above my face. She gave me this look which literally made me felt like I was going to be squashed. She ordered me to start reciting whatever I had memorized (Mantra).
At that moment I could understand true devotion, feeling the difference between sexual pleasure and the true happiness that comes from being in service to a real High Priestess! I think She was sort of drawing down the Moon because it felt beyond sexuality, it was a very spiritual experience! Being down there below Her feet I started to worship them by licking Her high arches slowly. Her soles looked like porcelain, soft skin, Her dark toe painted nails...Her feet tasted a mixture of leather and a fresh scent out Her nice boots, I was in subspace, totally in heaven!
I am very grateful for such a experience, MDD was very generous... I saw a smile on Her face and could see that I was forgiven for my mistake. Finally, MDD told me to kneel up, ordered me to kiss Her feet and thank Her for the punishment. I have no words to describe this moment, worshipping Her wonderful feet was one of the most remarkable experiences during Domcon.  I had entered Her dream space, I was Her possession. From the moment I had first encountered Her I had been drawn to Her like a needle to the lodestone. She was the Lorelei and I the humble and helpless sailor dashed against the rocks below Her Feet!
Do not forget to check MDD's page : www.hausofmatriarchy.com

Grounding!

I was somewhere in South America, MDD allowed me to visit my family overseas. She told me that I needed to be more grounded to be able to serve Her better...And seeing family and being in touch with my roots is a great start for grounding!

Last time I served at Her household was on Sunday, it was a very special day. Since it is Christmas time She instructed me to go get Her a tree, We/we went together to pick it up. I carried from Her car and place it in the living room, She told me to check some bags at the garage and find the Christmas decorations for the tree and to finish my chores as soon as possible.

After that, She instructed me to open a bottle of champagne and pour Her a glass. As I said it was a great day, She allowed me to talk to Her about my experience serving as a houseboy during this year. I love to treat Her as The Queen She is and I expressed my gratitude for being considered as part of Her stable. It was a very emotional moment, as you may know MDD exudes tremendous spiritual energy and She is very aware of Her mission as a Matriarchal Leader.

We/we discussed about Her intentions to add worthy new slaves to serve at Her household. I clearly understand that She needs to consider different type of slaves with unique skills who will serve Her in many ways. She is the Master that makes my knees get weaker. It is hard to explain in words, I just feel very pleased when pleasing Her!

I believe I am heading to a new level of service because She informed me that I will be entering into chastity when I return to California. It is something that intrigues me because I know that it will require a lot of effort and discipline. It is the first time that I will start practicing chastity for real. I know the power She will have over me and the effect wearing a chastity device will bring to my life. I do not want to even think about every morning in the shower, each moment I will be wearing it will remind me on my status as Her chaste slave...OMG MDD, I will be helpless, without access to the key, aroused and sometimes horny. Yes I am a man and still enjoy having orgasms from time to time. I will have to focus to comply my duties and obey Her!

If you are interested in knowing more about serving MDD check : http://www.hausofmatriarchy.com/

Thanksgiving!

As soon as I arrived to the Haus of Matriarchy I was instructed to sweep and mop so it would look spotless when MDD's friends arrived to celebrate. I helped setting up the table for the turkey and served some drinks as well. I value very much that MDD had me serving Her on Thanksgiving day. I would say that MDD is helping me be grounded and grow as Her servant. I acknowledge that I came to this world to treat Women with supreme respect for the reminder of my life.

 Sometime after 7:30 PM everybody left and I started to pick up the table, put food away, do the dishes, clean the kitchen while MDD was watching TV. After I was done with my chores I reported to Her. She told me that I would be staying over night and that I would sleep in the Haus. I thought She was going to make me sleep in a cage but instead She allowed me sleep in a bed at the garage. She wanted me to take Her to the mall very early in the morning for the black Friday sales special.

I woke up around 4:30 AM and got ready for the mall. We went to some stores, She wanted to get boots for the winter.  I have to tell you that when I saw MDD wearing those boots all the cliches flew through my mind...beautiful, wonderful, heavenly etc.

Later in the afternoon MDD instructed me to take Her for lunch. She dressed up and was wearing the new black boots. She told me that She wanted something light to eat and I suggested Thai food. I know She loves their soups and I thought it would be a good idea since She wanted to eat lightly. Once at the restaurant She ordered me to take my sun glassess off. She looked very elegant, black jacket, black pants and of course the boots.

If you have ever had the chance to see Her pictures on Her websites you will know She is a beautiful, powerful Woman. Hers is a classy beauty, I realized, one that lures quickly and captures easily. It doesn't sneak up on you; It hits you right between the eyes. She knows this, MDD is a true Master, and She wears the term as well as Her jeans!

While eating MDD asked me things about my trip to NYC and She also scolded me for not updating my blog. She told me that now that my 30th birthday was coming to be prepared to be flogged for Her enjoyment. She was firm and strict and gave me a hint which for a second made me pictured myself being flogged next day for my birthday...I could imagine  "I was quickly ordered to the floor, on my hands and knees. A chain was slipped around my neck and a gag was fitted into my mouth...I saw She strode into a hallway and led me along, I saw myself completely in servitude". But that was what came to my mind when MDD told me about the flogging...what happened in my birthday is another story!

To learn more about serving MDD go check Her page : http://www.hausofmatriarchy.com/

Preparing For Thanksgiving!

MDD instructed me that I would be spending Thanksgiving at the Haus of Matriarchy. She invited some friends over. But in order to have the Haus of Matriarchy ready for this big celebration I had to give my best to make sure home is clean and decorated. First MDD instructed me to get a wreath, She wanted to have a nice pine tree smell around the Haus.

As you may be wondering about my position in the Haus of Matriarchy, I am a houseboy, some of my duties are chores such as doing dishes, laundry, cleaning/dusting, washing Her bathroom among other. I have also been working on projects such as learning about gardening, planting etc. MDD wants me to learn new skills that can be of benefit to the Haus of Matriarchy.

This was a very good week, I accomplished many things while serving MDD and were able to have the Haus ready for Thanksgiving!

To learn more about serving MDD go check Her page : http://www.hausofmatriarchy.com/

New Bedroom

Moving MDD's room was a good workout! I went to MDD home, the Haus of Matriarchy...me an another sub were serving Her, moving Her room and setting up Her new home office. We moved all the furniture, bed and desk. After that we made sure to clean, sweep, mop, MDD wants to expand Her stable of sub/slaves and that is the main reason why She is making the Haus of Matriarchy a place where other members can spiritually grow and serve!

MDD has instructed me to start communication with potential sub/slaves who understand Matriarchy is their new religion. Any sub/slave who wants to be considered for service must be aware that if accepted for service MDD will have full rights to use you as She pleases without regard to your needs.

Personally, during these months serving Her I have become simply a vessel that exists to serve Her in any way She desires. So be prepared to be used if you are seriously considering submission and slavery. She will train you, mold you and take you to a place where only Her needs exist!

Do you want to serve MDD, go check Her page for more information : http://www.hausofmatriarchy.com/

Worship!

There is a curious phenomenon of men wanting to worship Women as Goddesses. And outside of this scene dominant Women also find men coming to them who want to devote their whole lives in serving and worshipping them. Well as you may know this blog is about Matriarchy which I believe in and MDD who is the head of the Haus of Matriarchy.
Among other things MDD is a spiritual Leader, knowing and serving Her has clarified my ideas of Worship and service. I remembered being a child and playing with friends from school that : "I was a servant and that the girls were Queens". It is interesting that I can relate that now with my views about Women Worship, these ideas have obviously evolved, I am older and more thoughtful, well sometimes not that aware of, LOL, still keep being punished for acting lightly... MDD in a sense has become that ideal of Worship in its purest sense I unconsciously crave when I was very young.
So I have to ask the question; why? Why would men who have ruled and dominated society want to suddenly worship, adore and serve Women? From my point of view, I would say that it is a spiritual primal need. The idea of people worshipping a male god is very new. It seem this began about five thousand years ago at the end of the Stone-Age, when the first images of male deities were discovered. Before then, archaeologist and paleontologists have only discovered images of Females.
So I personally came to the conclusion that I need to Worship Women, I have accepted that Female guidance is essential to fulfill such spiritual need. Matriarchy is not a new order but the right order to balance the imbalance. I feel MDD is proving that, She is teaching me the ways of Matriarchy which I am naturally following because they resonate with my deepest, intimate spiritual visions.
So the Goddess archetype is very powerful and many men today do desperately want to serve and worship Women as Goddesses. But it required Women to understand this role. For instance a Dominatrix who just sees Her role in acting out a sexual fantasy is not going to get a great response for men. But the more She can feel She is a Goddess, a true represantion of Mother Nature or Inka Ooo, the more men will respond to Her. Certainly many Women do have problems in seeing themselves as Goddesses whom men want to worship and adore. But this is what men desperately want.
So this is why I have the utmost respect for MDD, She is not playing a role or fulfilling a male's fantasy. She belongs to this select growing group of Women who genuinely live Their lives knowing and are aware of Their Superiority to men. It is not that I just figured that out but that I consciously have experienced it while serving MDD, whether I am doing dishes at The Haus of Matriarchy, doing Her laundry, fixing stuff, acting as Her assistant or just giving Her a foot massage. 
I have learned to rationally accept my lower male status. It is not that I am fantasizing with all these concepts of Matriarchy, it is because I am a better man by embracing this spiritual need of Women Worship and service!  
To learn more about serving MDD go check Her page :  www.hausofmatriarchy.com

Not Sufficient

MDD : Ur apology was not sufficient in light of ur comments. I am tired of expending energy on u. If that hurt ur feelings then u don't get it. U don't understand when I say things. Sometimes can't hear me!!!!

me: I have never had something so real to be controled and learned to be quiet, it is a new experience for me MDD...I want to be an asset for u not to bother u...that's what i am trying to figure out, to learn to be ur shadow, it's hard MDD.

MDD : U don't think. I just act. I mean you just act. You just do the first thing that comes into that meat head of urs. And it's ur "man" act. Reread ur apology make it better. Include this conversation type it out. I make u transcribe for ur own good. To reread my words. I didn't call u on purpose Sunday because I was trying to enjoy my day. And u kept interrupting to the point that I didn't want to speak to u anymore. Yesterday I wanted the door done and I had plans to have a business dinner which I took my time to tell you about even tho I did not need to tell you what I was doing. Me not seeing u had nothing to do with u. It was all about me. My door, my plans. My business deal. So tiring.

me : I understand

Above is the second part of the conversation after the incident at The Haus of Matriarchy. Today is the beginning of November, still in NYC for the weekend and I haven't seen MDD since awhile ago. I was also for a week or so in DC for work.

As I mentioned on my profile I am in the military and although life can be hard sometimes, I think that I am mentally and physically prepared to face the most challenging situations. "Peace is not a soldier's job but sometimes only a soldier can do it", LOL...I love this line... 

This trip has been very joyful and helped to see things with a different perspestive, especially regarding to my future goals, life purpose and obviously my "relationship" with The Haus of Matriarchy.

I am about to start packing for my flight but before that I wanted to post the previous conversations and to write about them as instructed by MDD. Always remember that among some other things submission is mainly about obedience! 

I honestly would say that because of my background I can adapt, adjust to almost any situation...And it is precisaly what I am doing now. MDD has been disciplining me after the last inconvenient at The Haus of Matriarchy and I am doing my best in order to be more thoughtful and aware of.

I made a terrible mistake and as I believe in Karma life is making me pay...or better MDD is making me pay for it.

I would also like to talk about the amazing things I feel while I serve MDD, it is very fun and She is great but now it is not the time for it...I can't wait to return to California where I live and see the coming chapters of my days and my future with The Haus of Matriarchy.

I would like to leave for now with the following thought :

Submission is an art form, an instinctual need for service in its purity of selfless giving. Femininity in all shapes and forms melts my heart and drives my desire!

I hope you have the time of your life! 

Check MDD'S page if You want to know about serving Her : http://www.hausofmatriarchy.com/